The End Of Myself

Eph 1:10 That in the dispensation of the fulness of times he might gather together in one all things in Christ, both which are in heaven, and which are on earth; even in him:

There was a long period of time that I lived outside of Christ. I knew the concept of Christ very well. I understood that He died for the sins of the world and that through faith in the death, burial and resurrection of Christ I could be saved. I knew this and completely understood this long before I submitted my life to him. Knowing a thing and understanding a thing is not living it out.

There were several decades of life that I was living with knowledge but operating in foolishness. Looking back over my life from this current point of view, I realize that the foolishness wasn't the activities but the neglecting of the knowledge that was imputed to me. The foolish activities of my life were just a result of neglecting what I clearly knew to be right.

God is extremely patient and loving. He watched over me in all of my mess. He loved me through some tough situations without me even knowing it. He allowed me to get to the end of myself to finally come to the realization that He was with me the whole time. It was in this moment of exhaustion of myself that the swelling of the knowledge of Christ began to take over.

Now that I have walked with God almost two decades, I realize that He gathered me in Christ Jesus before the foundation of the world. It was in His foreknowledge that he predestined me to be his child. I am so thankful that God allowed me to come to the end of myself. I am now locked in a place with Christ and my life is renewed each day.

The greatest advice that I have for you is to submit early. If you are walking around with the same knowledge that I had but are operating in foolishness, stop. Turn around and submit to the knowledge of Christ that has been given to you. The sooner you submit the greater your life will become.